I can rest.

I'm bipolar.

The up and down crushed me for years and I couldn't get rest.  I'm thankful that I never tried to kill myself, or ever really wanted to, but it was a struggle all the same.  I can't even find the words to describe what it was like.  I just couldn't ever get a break from the mania and depression.  I could never be emotionless.  I could never just be.

I was on several medications and finally came to a match.  I could rest.  I didn't feel anything.  I was almost emotionless for about a year.

It was thrilling.

I have emotion now, but it's subdued a lot.  I get sad and I get excited, but it's never to the extreme that it was a few years ago.  I lost some things; I lost some of my skill to express myself.  I lost some creativity and some enthusiasm.  I lost some short term memory and some mental quickness.  But I can't even express how thankful I am to be able to rest, to slow down and be less intense, to get calm.  I feel like I can prepare for my adult life because now I can control my mind.  I have never been happier in my life.  And I know it's going to get better.

Bipolar no longer affects my life.  I can rest.

The concept of terrorism.

Terrorism is not confined to extremist Muslims.

From wikipedia:

Terrorism in the modern sense is violence or other harmful acts committed (or threatened) against civilians for political or other ideological goals.

Terrorism happens all the time.

Anti-minority violence
Columbine
the Oklahoma City bombing
The KKK

This is terrorism in America.  Why isn't the war on terrorism fighting that?

I hate

Politicians who don't have anything else to make people want to vote for them except talking bad about other politicians.  I'm tired of getting mail from politicians stating that their opponent voted to get the ten commandments out of schools, are for gay marriage, vote pro choice, vote pro life, etc.
If I want to know what the opponent stands for, I don't need you to tell me.  They can speak for themselves.  
What do YOU stand for, Mr. Smear Campaign?  Are you such a douchebag that you can't even stand up for your beliefs without making everybody else look bad?  Is your campaign so weak and are you so unconfident in your ability to get elected that you have to bring up stuff that doesn't even matter about your opponents?  Shouldn't you be focusing on YOUR campaign?

It frustrates me so much.

You know what I think?

About these republicans in gay sex scandals:
When you are essentially forced to believe something you're going to want to rebel against it.  Some people are better at dealing with this desire than others.  If you're indoctrinated all your life to believe homosexuality is wrong, you're going to have a natural curiosity about it.  That's fine.  I think these people who are getting caught in these scandals really, aren't bad people.  We need to look at the environment these people are in.  Maybe we shouldn't look down on these people, but try to change the environment to make it much less harsh.

Hurray

So you probably already know who I am because you're my mom or something. If you don't know who I am, here's a list of some things I like.

-lip balm
-Barack Obama
-Ron Paul
-politics
-wikipedia
-food
-Shenmue
-the internet
-music
-huge purses
-snow
-when useless, incompetent politicians resign
-art
-the toyota yaris
-when people are nice to me
-wearing cute clothes
-flip flops
-my hair
-bonzai trees
-chai
-tea
-south of nowhere and degrassi
-top chef and project runway
-knowing what I'm going to do with my life
-tuna salad
-cupcakes
-any baked good prepared in muffin tins
-people who are confident in who they are
-people who respectfully disagree with other people's opinions
-Jesus and Mohammed and the Buddah and anybody who changed the way people viewed religion
-Pope John Paul II
-Tammy Faye Messner

Here's a list of things I don't like.

-being sick
-the right wing
-superiority complexes
-feeling guilty
-conflict
-uncontrollable weight gain
-people who think they're better than everybody else
-constipation
-incompetent politicians
-most religions
-people who think they know everything about me
-extreme temperatures
-my caffeine sensitivity
-my fucked up insulin
-being overwhelmingly busy
-acne